| | i don't want to lose my house.
i just don't.
i've lived here for 4 years now. only four and i finally got to move into the biggest spare bedroom because my sister finally got married.
we just paid 10k or so to finish the effing red room and i love it. it's my favorite room of any house i've ever seen.
it's mine.
it's not someones who can just go and buy it and its theirs.
i designed it. i watched the builders finish it. i decorated it. i paid for a lot of it.
its MINE dammit.
i feel so selfish but i can't help it. i finally get settled, finally after the biggest change of my entire life, after my entire world falls to pieces and i finally am okay again. and they come and fuck me up again. AGAIN.
my mom is going to frickin kill herself going a whole year maybe more without my stepdad. she needs him. i need him. i need my family. this house is so much to me. so many memories so many things i never thought i'd have to let go of. i've already DONE that. why do i have to do it again?!?!
why can't i do ANYTHING about this. i have absolutely no control over my future, no control over anything right now.
all i want is my family and my house together, in dexter.
is that so much to ask for?
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| | Posted 1/29/2007 10:40 PM - 8 Views - 4 eProps - 2 comments
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